What happen to you?

Dear yafu,

I don't know how to start this letter... But what has happened to you?
You've been having insomnia for so long... I know there's something in your mind...
You are not looking well~ Like unhappy... What has happened to you?

Let me tell you something... Go slow... Go soft... Go back to the original you...
Since this year, you've been attacking ppl...
Yes, indeed, they may be doing something wrong, to others or to you...
but, so what? that is what they did, not what you should do~
you are not such ppl, you knew it...

I know you can be very evil very bad very offensive... so?
you wish to be like that?
keep it back... this is not what you've learn...
how are you going to face your parents? your family? your friends? your students? all those who treat you like father, brothers, sisters, teacher, role model...

I know there are times of difficulties... I know you've been suffering so much...
Please remember one thing... Ri jiu jian ren xin... You will know who a person is, when you know him longer and deeper...

Control your temper, you've been losing it for quite a long time... Control it, dun let it control you! Control your hatred, dun let it control you! I believe you can do it...

Don't you ever forget those who loves you, who really cares for you... ah~ there's many type of people in this world... sometimes what they did is also not what they want... you must, must forgive others... MUST! This is what you are being taught to do...

See, people worrying for you... they know you are sad... You are so bad... make people worry... aiks~ you want them to worry for how long? I don't know your answer... you should know it yourself....

Hey! There's lots of difficulties in front of you! And challenges...
I know you have a very clear vision ahead... you're leaving this place very soon... very very soon... just spend the rest of the time wisely, help more people that you can help... give them the encouragement they need... AT LEAST, THEY CAN SURVIVE IN THIS SOCIETY!~ THEY CAN SEE THROUGH THIS WORLD... THEY CAN UNDERSTAND...

i know you can do it... you will be alright...
i know you are a human being, you also have weak time...
be strong... you are just off track for 3 months... come back... spend some time to chill down...
talk more to your old friends, they'll bring you back to where you belong to... coz they know you, they trust you, they understand your behavior...

Lastly, drink more water and rest earlier... you always ask others to do so...
but you ler?
alright~ i shall let you rest for tonight after listen me nagging...
take care... i love you, and please spread the good deeds and love around you...
Impossible is nothing... you will be alright soon...

yours truly,

范雅福